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Posts Tagged ‘best friend’

Killing My Best Friend

Posted by terrepruitt on August 15, 2013

When I was young I thought you could only have one best friend.  Made sense to me that you have a friend that is the BEST.  Only ONE can be the BEST.  You can only have one.  One.  Best.  Friend.  As I got older I realized you could have more than one best friend.  Each friend could be best at something or you could have a best friend who is best at everything but the title of best friend is not regulated to one.  So now as an adult I am very blessed to have more than one friend that is best.  I have a few best friends. And now sadly, heartbreakingly, I might have to kill one of my best friends.

How how can I do that?  How do you kill your best friend?  Some say it’s humane, it’s the right thing to do. But if it is the right thing to do why does it feel so wrong?  When I hear the turmoil in her tummy, I think, “Poor girl.”   When she has very bad litter box trips, I think that’s really no way to live.  But when I look in her eyes and ask her if she’s ready to go I don’t think they are saying she is ready.  When she lies by the open door and she is so still I think she is near death or already dead, then there is the tiniest noise outside and she jumps up to sitting position to see what it is, I don’t think it is right.

How do you kill your best friend?  It might be different if there were words and they were asking.  But to make the decision to decide my best friend would be better off dead – gone forever – how?  How can I kill my best friend?

My heart has always broken for those who were faced with that decision and did it.  I have always believed them to be so strong . . . . because I always knew I wouldn’t be.  She is a cat and I have different beliefs regarding animals, than I do people.  I believe many people I will see again, but I was taught I would not see my pets again.  I somewhat feel their death is permanent, whereas people are passing onto another place.  (And by somewhat, I have come up with an idea, but that is for another post.)  While I miss the people who have died I have steady faith that I will be with them again . . . but a cat?  A dog?  A rabbit?  A bird?  And to be the one RESPONSIBLE for having ended that life.  Being the one to make my best friend go away FOREVER.

Dance Exercise, Nia, Nia at the City of San Jose, Nia classes in the South Bay, Nia Teacher, Nia Class, San Jose Nia, Nia San Jose, Nia workout, Nia, Zumba, PiYoI just realized today that I have the most simplistic goal for life:  I want to wear a hole in my cat’s head from kisses.  I want to at least make a bald spot.  If she is gone, I won’t be able to complete that goal.  This post is taking a long time to write because I keep going downstairs to work on that goal.  Or at least check on her.  I put a mirror behind the TV where she has been lying lately.  That way I can see if she is there before I get all the way down the stairs.  Then I stare unblinkingly the entire time I am walking down the stairs towards her — I want to see if she is breathing.  If I don’t see her reflection in the mirror then I know to start my search elsewhere.  The picture in this post is from the stairs, the ceiling is in the frame up at the top along with the dining room light fixture in the upper right.  I only have to go down a few stairs to check on her.

I know this post and all my post about our cat aren’t fitness related.  But they are health and wellness related; this is me releasing some of my heartache in hopes that it will help get me through.  Don’t know what tomorrow will bring . . . . but I know that I am not ready to kill my best friend.  I hope it does not come to that.  But (sigh), I hope that if, or more probable — when the time comes I will be as strong and able as many, many of you have been.  For now, this is the stage I am in.  This is how I feel.  I am not ready to throw in the towel and give up on her.

We are going to begin a new treatment shortly (as soon as it arrives – which will hopefully be VERY soon) and maybe that will allow us to see some progress.  We will see.  This is me sharing.  Thanks for listening.

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War With Cancer

Posted by terrepruitt on May 18, 2010

One of my best friends’ sister has been battling cancer for a year.  When people say “battling” cancer, it is an accurate statement.  When one “battles” cancer, it is for one’s life.  The fight is messy, painful, tiring, expensive, costly, and heart breaking, just like all battles.

I questioned myself regarding posting about it, because I didn’t ask my friend.  But I received a sense of knowing that if I wrote this and one person read it and it affected their life in a positive way then even though my friend’s sister lost the battle yesterday (May 17, 2010) she would be happy. SHE would have wanted me to write this, because she fought with all of her might and all of her faith until the very end. So she would want me to remind you of some of the signs you might want to pay attention to.  She would want us to continue with the war with cancer.

—A change in bowel habits
—Feeling that the bowel does not empty completely
—Stools that are narrower or have a different shape than usual
—Blood (either bright red or very dark) in the stool
—General abdominal discomfort (frequent gas pains, bloating, fullness, or cramps)
—Change in appetite
—Weight loss for no known reason
—Feeling very tired

You might want to talk to a medical professional if you have any of the previously mentioned signs.  These symptoms may be signs of rectal cancer. (1)

I would like to remind you that you need to listen to your body, you need to take time out from your schedule and you need to question things when things don’t feel right.  We all suffer from, “Well, its nothing.”  “Its this.”  “Its that.”  It is scaring and frustrating that as we age our bodies change so we never know if what is going on is part of the natural aging or if something is wrong.  Then we rely on the medical professionals to tell us because that is their job, but they don’t know either.  The last time I went to the doctor I felt as if I greatly annoyed her and was wasting her time because I was healthy.  So, I understand hesitation in going to the doctor.

But we all need to be better about it, myself included.  I learned some other things today that I didn’t know in regards to colon cancer*.

-According to the American Cancer Society, colorectal cancer is one of the leading causes of cancer-related deaths in the United States.

-Nearly all colon cancers begin as noncancerous (benign) polyps, which slowly develop into cancer.

-You have a higher risk for colon cancer if you: Have a personal history of breast cancer

-There is no single cause for colon cancer.  What you eat may play a role in your risk of colon cancer. (2)

The Mayo Clinic’s definition:

*Colon cancer is cancer of the large intestine (colon), the lower part of your digestive system. Rectal cancer is cancer of the last several inches of the colon. Together, they’re often referred to as colorectal cancers.

You were brave and fought well, you will be forever missed and loved. When I think of the situation and your family I am sad, but when I think of you and your attitude during your battle, I smile.  Thank you for positive energy.

(1) Information from the National Cancer Institute
(2) Information from Medline Plus

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