Now, Not The Future
Posted by terrepruitt on August 1, 2015
I admit, I am challenged with living in the NOW. I have posted about it before in my Still Practicing Living in the Moment post. It is a constant practice. The idea of multi-tasking does not help. It takes the focus off of what you are doing because your attention is split, and I talked about that in my post “Multitasking”. There are so many things that remind me to live in the present. There are always memes showing up on my Facebook Newsfeed. There are even Bible verses. Nia used to stand for Now I Am, which I was taught meant to focus on the present, to move and dance in the moment. But still, I often don’t pay attention to the moment. When I am not living in the moment sometimes it causes me to worry or feel anxious. When I have a lot to do, a lot to get done, that is when I am most thinking about doing the next thing. I am especially anxious for the future right now. It is like when you have a vacation planned and you can’t wait for it to get here. I can’t wait for our cats isolation period to be over with.
We brought them home on Saturday, July 4, 2015. For a day or two Smokey was fine but then we noticed her starting to rub her ears a lot. She was rubbing and scratching them bloody. Then I noticed Esmeralda had scabby ears. As I mentioned in my other post it didn’t really hit us that we needed to go to the vet until a Saturday. We couldn’t get in to a vet (I called five) until Monday (July 13th). The culture wasn’t back until Tuesday, the 21st. John was wonderful and picked up the meds that evening on his way home from work. So we could start administering right away.
It was on the 13th that we locked them in one room. Now we have to give them meds until the August 19th. We have an appointment with the vet on August 10th. The vet will take samples at that time. While we are waiting for the culture to come back (10 to 14 days) we will be finishing up the 30 days of medication.
We are excitedly waiting for the 19ths when we will be done with 30 days of medication. But what if the culture doesn’t come back negative? OH MAN! What if we have to go more isolation time and more culture time and expense? AHHHH! What if ONE culture is negative and the other one positive? What if we go bat guano crazy before the 19th?
So I am having a difficult time living in the now. I have a ton of stuff to do and I feel as if I can’t really concentrate or enjoy (whatever should apply) because I am so wanting this whole thing to be over. I want the cats to be able to free, plus I really just want to get back to living our regular lives. This whole process is a pain in the ass.
I know I need to just focus on the moment. It really does make things better. It allows me to get more out of what I am doing. I allows me to enjoy the present. It helps me to not worry and be anxious. But damn it is a challenge!
Can you share a story of a situation when you were looking forward to the end and anxious about it at the same time? Have you ever had this happen where you are not living in the moment?
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paywindow7 said
My wife and I were “dog sitting” our sons pet a while back and noticed he was scratching his ears a lot. Long story short we took him to the vet and were told that the little pup had something they called ” fly strikes”. I had never heard that term before. We got the dope and started treating him at home and it worked. He was a happy house bomb again.
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terrepruitt said
Oh, he is a lucky dog that you spotted it. It can get bad. Our poor pets can get inflicted with so much stuff.
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