11:00 PM, Friday, April 11, 2014
Posted by terrepruitt on April 12, 2014
I posted some information on Facebook, but there are Nia students that are not on Facebook, but who read my blog. There are also yoga students who I am not friends with on FB who read my blog . . . and there are many of you who have sent love and support while my mom was dying. I am very grateful for all of the love, support, stories . . . and just everything that has been sent to my family and me. It has helped me more than you know. I will probably go back and tell the story of my mom’s last two years (or so) just because I really feel like sharing the story of the brave woman that she was. Also, it will serve as therapy for me and as a log. I will probably share more about my feelings on this whole “process of dying” that so many people just accept as the way it has to be. I do not agree nor do I feel it is an acceptable way for someone to spend their last days on this earth. The purpose of this post, though is to share with you that my mom died around 11:00 pm on Friday, April 11, 2014.
The hospital called me at a few minutes before 1:00 am on Saturday, April 12, 2014. So I keep thinking date of death is today, but I was told it was about 11:00 pm on Friday. I don’t know the exact time, but that is not all that important. What is important is that she is done with the twelve days of the “process”.
She went to the hospital on Saturday, March 22, 2014 because she could not breathe. They placed a tube in her throat to open the airway because they thought that they would be able to do more for her on the Monday. But her team of doctors decided that there really was nothing more they could do. One of her doctors was willing to perform a very risky surgery if my mom elected to go that route, but she did not. So she was told that she needed to pick a day to die . . . the conclusion reached by her medical team was that once the tube was removed her damaged trachea would collapse shortly there after and death would be relatively quick.
It was a common occurrence though, for my mother to not do anything according to what the doctors have previously experienced or think would happen. That is just how it has always been. She reacted badly to drugs that no one EVER had reactions to. She was always surprising her doctors and teaching them things by way of her body responding to treatments/procedures/etc differently than they had ever seen. This always served as a reminder to them, over and over, that each body is different.
The tube that was in her throat was thought to be keeping her throat open. As I said, the medical professionals thought once it was removed her throat would collapse. While the tube was hooked up to a ventilator it was rarely breathing for her. She was breathing on her own. Only once in a while — when she was tired — did the machine take over. And most often it was only for a few breaths. So she was able to breathe on her own, it was just an airway issue. Because trachea’s can’t be fixed or transplanted she was told she would die and that she needed to decide when that would be.
She sat in bed for 10 days contemplating death. All the while she worried about us — did we eat, we should go sleep, etc. She joked with us and allowed us to talk while she listened. The day for the scheduled extubation was stressful and nothing went as planned. In fact it was twelve days after the tube was removed that she died.
I want to emphasize that the hospital staff and my mom’s medical team was very kind and caring and they did all they could to make the dying process “comfortable”. My issue with the process is not with them nor the hospital. As I said, that is another post altogether, but I wanted to explain that she received good care.
We are now able to enter into the grieving stages of “after a loved one dies” . . . because up until now it was a horrific place of limbo. So, if you are able, please keep up all the wonderful stuff you have been doing. Please keep sending positive thoughts and prayers. Throw over that glitter, sparkle, and shine. I have really been lapping it up and I appreciate it so, so, so, so, so, so much.
Make a toast, take a bite, relish the breath . . . . .
Thank you.
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Joan Meyer said
Now she’s at peace… and it’s time for you to find some…. thanks for letting us know… thinking of you and your family!
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terrepruitt said
Thank you, Joan.
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Stacy B. said
♥
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Kayte Devlin said
Dear Terre , I am crying reading this last blog. What a pair of great ladies you and your Mom are. 2009 and then 2012 I said Goodbye to my folks … I was with my Dad the entire time in Hospice . I couldn’t be with my Mom as my Son was getting married . That was a difficult choice for me. But my Mom wanted me to choose Happiness.
Dad was Brave , Funny entertaining and grateful when He knew it was His Time . He was scared too. Mostly He was grateful for a long life.
Your Mom was so young . I know you must have not expected her leaving so soon.
She has an amazing daughter and She knew that . As a Mom that is all I wish for . Her Happiness was and is much stronger than any suffering you may have witnessed . You brought Her Happiness ! Please remember that ! Your Contentment in life caused her Happiness and Happiness always wins out.
Keep writing and sharing . You are on a New Journey …So is your Mom … All My Love . Look for signs from her soon ….Kayte
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terrepruitt said
Thank you Kayte. Yeah, I do think my mom was young. So many people live to be in their 80’s so it is a bummer that she was short about 20 years. 😦
I would like to not have other people have to watch their loved one’s body’s break down. I believe that we are more humane to animals . . . . but that is another issue altogether and probably a heated one. 🙂
Thank you for reading and caring.
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Jen Campbell said
So sorry for the horrible experience you all went through. So happy your mom is finally at peace. I love you. XXXOOO 🙂
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terrepruitt said
Thanks, Jen.
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Angelica said
MAY SHE REST IN PEACE AND LIVE ON IN YOUR HEART!
Thank you for sharing this difficult ending to your Mom’s life.
Much LOVE to you Terry and to all your family, Angelia
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terrepruitt said
Thank you, Sweetie!
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pegbur7 said
I am so sorry for your loss but I know you are somewhat relieved that it’s over…..in the sense that she is no longer suffering. My heart goes out to you and yours. Sending warm hugs and positive thoughts and wishes of strength and peace for you.
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terrepruitt said
Makes me crazy that everyone thinks she was suffering yet we accept this as the dying process. Crazy, yes?
Thank you for your sympathy, warm hugs, and positive thoughts.
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niachick said
I trust you will not mind that I am in this moment celebrating your mom’s life — her courage and resiliency. Quite the woman…much like her daughter. This blog post is beautiful, sorrowful, rich, and textured with peace and love. Having lost my mom (and dad), I can empathize with you around the void that is present. Yet I know that you know your mom’s spirit did not die…only her body. Doesn’t make it any less difficult, but for me when I see a cardinal or a rainbow or a full moon or a sunrise/sunset, I know my mom’s spirit is close by. You will find the way, if you haven’t already done so, of connecting with her essence. Love you much.
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terrepruitt said
🙂 I don’t mind.
I am still recovering from the horror of our accepted dying process. Perhaps once the memory of that fades I can find ways.
Thank you for your love and support!
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Cheryl P said
Your mom was adorable. May she rest in peace and may you find comfort in the time you had with her.
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terrepruitt said
Yeah, huh?
Thanks, Cheryl.
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